[He shakes his head slowly, hugging his knees to his chest as he stares out at the river.]
There wasn't. I didn't want to kill him, I didn't want to pilot Unit-01...but he told me to before he joined with Lilith. He told me he wanted to die and that if I killed him, he'd be happy that his death would mean humanity could keep on living.
I didn't want it to end the way it did. At that moment, I barely cared whether the world would exist anymore if it meant I could keep from killing him...but in the end I did it. I killed him. There wasn't any other choice.
[He set his chin against damp knees, still looking out over the water.]
Misato-san said I made the right choice and that I did the right thing...but I still think I should've been the one to die instead.
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There wasn't. I didn't want to kill him, I didn't want to pilot Unit-01...but he told me to before he joined with Lilith. He told me he wanted to die and that if I killed him, he'd be happy that his death would mean humanity could keep on living.
I didn't want it to end the way it did. At that moment, I barely cared whether the world would exist anymore if it meant I could keep from killing him...but in the end I did it. I killed him. There wasn't any other choice.
[He set his chin against damp knees, still looking out over the water.]
Misato-san said I made the right choice and that I did the right thing...but I still think I should've been the one to die instead.